Just a rant. I ate half a pint of gelato and my THIRD bag of microwave popcorn of the day in the first 15 min of the movie my SO and I were watching. He finished his Halo Top (he bought for the express purpose of treating himself tonight...while I got the full-calorie gelato under the hope I'd finally make it last....but ate it all in one day), and when he went to reach into the bag, he just found me rummaging for kernels... Because eating all that popcorn and gelato isn't enough. I keep doing this. I keep thinking I can "treat myself" because I "work hard" and nothing will come of it. I want so badly to be that person who can monitor themselves enough to indulge and maintain. I cannot. I got a second full dinner last night just because. I haven't been restricting— in fact much the opposite— but my emotions wanted Qdoba, I got it, ate it, and felt just as hungry as before eating it. Why. It's either hypervigilance or near-binge like conditions. I can't find a middle ground and am going to have to fight this every single time I open my mouth. End rant.
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