Hey LoseIt! I am so grateful to have found this subreddit. Been depressed and have gained the most weight I've ever gained in my life the past couple of years. In and out of ER's for mental health stuff, lost the last two of my therapists (they needed better pay), moved to a city where I'm isolated etc...
Anyway, I had another account that was mostly about the plethora of mental issues and addictions I have, but I deleted it because I started lurking on this sub. I will probably still subscribe to the other subs, but I am realizing I can focus on the things I can change right now, instead of waiting on the ridiculously long wait lists to work on my mental health. (Also physical health helps mental health, so why not start now?)
Got a FitBit, started logging calories, and went on a couple walks after being pretty much dead in bed. What I'm having trouble with is feeling so shameful and disgusting for letting myself get like this-- and how embarrassed I am when I can barely walk up a hill. I used to be slim and somewhat active, and now I can't look in the mirror when I'm naked without crying. It doesn't help that my ex, in anger, told me, "OF COURSE I'm not attracted to you-- you're disgusting and overweight!" Queue me hiding food from shame, eating more from the shame, not leaving the house because my clothes don't fit, gaining more etc...
BLAH I JUST WANT SOME PATS ON THE BACK FOR TAKING STEPS TO BE BETTER lol. No real life friends, no work, no partner, no community IRL. Thanks for being a great community, easily accessible by hermits like me. Sorry if this is against the rules, or if it seems like I'm insecure (I am). <3
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