Fat guy here. Right now I'm at 6' 345lbs. I've been in this cycle of up and down with my weight for the last 15 years. But now I can't seem to find a way back. I have a serious eating addiction, where I binge or overeat at least 5-6 days a week. I went to a group and met with a counselor, but I can' t seem to get ahold of it. It's almost like I'm scared to fail, or I know I will, so I cause myself to fail. I don't know if that makes sense, but I feel like I intentionally sabotage myself.
I have to fix this though. It's ruining my whole life. I spend too much on food, none of my clothes fit me, and I am afraid I am going to lose my job. I work in sales, and due to feeling like shit and having a negative self image I don't go on sales calls that I should, and I don't chase leads as I should in person. I don't know if this is all due to my weight, but I wasn't like this at all when I was thinner. All I know is that I have to fix this because I can't go on living like this. I would rather not even live, than to live with the shame and self-loathing I feel right now.
I don't have any questions. I just had to let that out.
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