I've never weighed this much in my life, I was trying to stay under 300lbs and I've gone over that to 315lbs. I'm 5'6", female, and 33 years old. Recently started commuting to work about 45 minutes each way to and from work. The only comfort I've found is food. I don't want to be on so much medication for anxiety and depression. So I spent $116 at Sprouts just now on organic food and I recently got a gym pass through my health insurance to start really committing to my physical health. I just want to be under 200lbs. I don't know how long that is going to take, but I don't like feeling this way anymore. I don't like looking in the mirror at my body anymore. I've taken pictures to document weight and hopefully progress, but I hate seeing them. Maybe someday I'll feel differently about them, but right now I am disgusted with myself. I'm trying to be positive but they way the nurses and doctor spoke to me at the office today just set me off. They made me feel like I wasn't being truthful about how I was feeling. Which was fine, I get it, I'm a thirty something overweight woman who doesn't look healthy. I was looking forward to doing this test. And all they wanted to know was why my blood pressure was so high. I had no idea. I didn't eat anything for breakfast and was just drinking water to avoid any possibility of throwing up on the treadmill. I have been going to the gym 2-3 times a week in October and walking a mile on the treadmill each time. I'm still doing that this week and going to work my way up to 5 days a week eventually. Weekends are going to be harder than weekdays. It's just my relationship with food that REALLY needs working on. I've tried many diets in the past and failed them. I've done Atkins, Weight Watchers, Whole 30, etc. The only time I ever lost any significant weight was post surgery for my gallbladder removal and I lost 50lbs. But now the only comfort I find is eating. So I've gotta be kind to myself, be patient, and try to eat better and more active on a daily basis somehow.
So any advice from women who have been in this position is appreciated. From anybody, really.
Thank you for reading this.
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