I’m 30f. My starting weight was 207 lbs, at 5’2”. Two years ago I was closing in on morbid obesity, fast, and I had to have a hysterectomy (unrelated to weight). I asked my doctor if my weight increased my chances of needing an open surgery vs laparoscopic. He was very honest and said that yes, at my weight and with my medical history, open surgery could happen. Since the surgery wasn’t urgent, I decided to lose weight first.
It hasn’t been remotely easy, and life has dealt me some particularly rough hands since then, I regained some weigt here and there, and plateaud for a full year, but now, two years later, I’m at -62 lbs. Single digits away from a healthy bmi, and I’m seeing a gynecologist soon to schedule the hysterectomy.
The thing is, I feel like it could all slip away at any moment. Logically, I know I’ve spent countless hours at the gym, I’ve weighed out pounds of lean protein and stuffed myself with healthy vegetables, but I still feel like a fraud. Like this body isn’t real, and I’m one fuck up away from being right were I started. Maybe it’s my head that hasn’t quite caught on yet, but I still feel like a fat girl, pretending to be “normal”.
Is anyone else dealing with this?
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