Stats: 22F, 5'8, Highest weight 193, lowest weight 152. Current weight is somewhere between 165-170.
I gained 15 pounds May 2019. 5 pounds last fall, then started antidepressants and factor in the situation that's been going on since spring, I gained another 10 this year.
You're laughing, saying 15 pounds is nothing compared to people who gain 50 back in a year. But I had to do a pre-employment physical for my internship back in June. Blood results said I have very high "bad" cholesterol and my glucose was higher than it was when I was at my heaviest (only a couple points from pre-diabetes during the recent test). I was interestingly ""healthy"" at 193 pounds. Last December my mom got diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. She's worked hard to lose weight and get it under control, but this stuff has me scared, as a young individual who is supposed to be fearless and not be worried about cholesterol and diabetes at my weight.
I wanted to lose just another 10 pounds back in 2018 when I was at my lowest. Now I'm looking to lose 25. I wanted to try many times the past two years but mentally wasn't in it. I couldn't commit, even after losing 40 pounds with calorie counting and exercise. No matter how easy I made it for myself, I binged and baked cookies and ate 24 in one day because I'm a sugar addict who will keep stuffing cake and candy no matter how much my stomach hurts.
Yesterday I started again, I came out +50 calories than I planned but it's ok. Today I came out +100 calories than I planned. But I DIDN'T BINGE. I didn't feel controlled by food yesterday or today. I didn't cave in to over eating "just because I can." I made a commitment to myself to stick with it. I'll do my first weigh in next Monday after I move this weekend.
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