Yesterday, I went to the bakery, planning to buy two pieces of bread: one for dinner, and another for breakfast. But, you know, temptation. There was this most beautiful apple-raisin muffin that was calling to me, and I couldn't stop myself. I was like: hey, you've been doing so well the past two weeks, and you're going to workout today anyway. It won't hurt to have a treat!
So I went and got it, along with a plain white roll and a cheese-stuffed roll.
When I got home, I had my workout. And then dinner (buttered corn and carrots) with the white roll. And I thought that it was time for my treat! But wait, I'm not hungry anymore. Let me just have half then. Which is what I did. But when I was about to log my calories, I had the biggest panic attack. I know it's not really cool to guesstimate a lot, but since I don't eat back exercise calories, I allow myself this. The problem was, estimates for apple-raisin muffins ranged from 150 cals/pc to 600 cals/pc! It's such a huge range! I got so angry at myself afterward.
Why couldn't I control myself? I could have prevented myself from buying more than planned! I could've stopped eating when I was full!
Why did I go to the bakery????
Why did I eat something so carby and sugary and calorie-dense????
And why did I eat it on the night before my weigh-in day?????
I cried so much last night. Got so angry that I might have slowed down whatever progress I've made this week. And I dreaded this morning. I was so scared to step on the scale.
But when I did, the numbers actually went down! I've actually reached my (current) goal! And now I feel so stupid - the anger and the guilt, it wasn't necessary. I could've just accepted that hey, have a treat, it'll be okay. You'll be okay.
I know that this will likely repeat in the future: battling guilt over eating calorie-dense food is tough. But at least today, it's a victory.
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