F/17/5’4/176 lbs
I’m so done with everything. I’ve struggled with my weight for so long and I don’t know what to do anymore. I lost a lot of weight then gained it all back because of binge eating and now I can’t get back on track. I have PCOS and insulin resistance and I feel the need to be eating all day. I feel weird if I’m not always eating something or chewing something. If I’m doing nothing I’ll reach for food 24/7. I am always eating or grazing. I can eat 4 lunches after each other. Binge eating and compulsive eating have ruined my life. I don’t know how to eat normally anymore, I’m always thinking about food. I’m sitting in my room crying while my mom screams at me telling me I look like a fat pig and old woman that has 5 kids. I can’t get any therapist or anything but I’m so done with everything. I can’t stop eating and it’s fucking up my life. I can’t go one day with eating normally. I can’t be normal. I always have to be stuffed with food. I never stop when I’m full. The amount of shit I eat is so bad. As I’m typing this my mom is telling me that no guy will ever love me and she hopes I get anorexia. I’m so fed up I really don’t know what to do. I don’t wanna eat anymore but I can’t do it. She’s screaming at me right now telling me that nothing about me is right. I’m fucking up my insulin and I don’t know how to do anything.
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