Just a bit of background, I'm 19F 5'3 SW 134lbs CW 114lbs GW 110lbs
I've been losing weight since February. One thing that always stood out about me was my thighs - it's unproportional to my body. Back when I weighed 134lbs, my mid-thighs measured somewhere nearing 57cm and that scared me. You see, being asian, we're stereotyped to be petite and slim, I would be lying if I said I didn't want to be like that. So I was perceived to be bigger than I actually was by my friends and family (since every one of my friends were slimmer than me, ofc I stood out, it's just perspective).
Slimming down my thighs were sort of like my main motivation to lose weight. Since I'm short, my legs end up looking stubby. My family and friends always joked how big my thighs were, this caused me to stop wearing shorts in public. My parents even said to the point I should give my legs a lyposuction since they were so big. I admit, those comments hurt, but I knew they were just making me face the reality of things.
Anyway, Now that I'm down to 114lbs, I measured my thighs and saw they were around 49cm. I was happy of course! I didn't see much difference in the mirror, but the tape says otherwise. However, I still thought it wasn't enough. I mean, I look at the mirror and try to scale whether or not I should keep slimming them down. Although I was somewhat satisfied already, I feel like I could do better but I gave myself a pat on the back for doing a good job. The fat thigh jokes stopped around the house since February, which is great! But whenever I look at them, there's this nagging voice in my head telling me "nope, they're still fat, keep slimming them down!" But another part was telling me that it's already enough.
Then yesterday, the fat thigh jokes came back. My parents were discussing about their friend's daughter about puting on some weight, and that her thighs were so massive. My dad suddenly made a joke saying "well, it can't be as big as (my name)'s thighs obviously." Then laughed since he knew I heard it since I was in the room. I laughed back but deep inside I realized my thighs still weren't slim enough, they still weren't good enough. That nagging voice at the back of my mind was right.
It may seem shallow and weak to be influenced by such a simple statement, I understand if you think that of me. But I can't help but feel that I'm somewhat almost there–almost satisfied–with my thighs, which is the bane of my existence. I shouldn't be so lax with my thighs just yet and my parents made me realize that.
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