First time posting on this subreddit, not sure if there’s a more appropriate one. This is something I’ve been struggling with for awhile (sorry, long post ahead).
I’ve always struggled with my weight. Losing weight has never been easy. I look at a cupcake and I swear I gain 5 lbs! I struggled with bulimia and binge eating disorder in my late teens and early 20s (I’m 31 now). I went to therapy and worked out a lot of my issues. I’m pro-body positivity and I think everyone at every size is beautiful. However, for some reason, I struggle with applying that concept to myself.
I got married last year and I’ve been gaining weight. My clothes are fitting tighter and I feel gross. I’m just not as disciplined as I used to be. I can hardly look at myself in the mirror anymore. My husband is supportive and wonderful, telling me I’m beautiful all the time. However, I’ve been feeling really down on myself regardless.
I’ve been trying to lose weight, but it’s as if I don’t really “want” it badly enough (if that makes sense). I’ll use my lose it app for a week, feel a bit better, then binge and go off the rails again. I don’t think I restrict myself calorie wise (1900 per day). I eat pretty healthy overall, but I definitely have an issue with sugar (it tastes good and makes me feel happy, like everyone else!). I don’t restrict myself or put anything off limits (ED behaviour)...but then I think I ended up using that as an excuse to eat whatever/whenever I want (which isn’t great either).
Not really sure where I’m going with this, maybe others have been in a similar situation. How do you get out of this funk? I’m seeing a therapist for the first time in awhile next month, but maybe I can get a handle on it a bit earlier :)
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