Sorry for formatting, I'm on mobile. Also, english is not my first language so mistakes will be made. TL;DR at the bottom.
I've never been a small girl. Hell, even when I was at my lowest weight (~130ish) I was bulky and felt fat. I was at a healthy BMI and didn't have any pains, but I thought that I was a big girl and that was it.
Because of that belief, I didn't find it so bad when I started gaining weight. I got in college, and gained almost 40 pounds. A mix of anxiety, depression, being overwhelmed by medical school and living alone for the first time made me eat like a madwoman and forget all about exercising, I felt too tired most of the time anyway. In my mind, I didn't look so different, so it shouldn't be that bad, right?
Oh boy was I wrong, and how I want to smack my past self for ignoring this issue.
I started feeling lower back pain, and needed treatment. I never thought it was about my weight, so I shrugged it off as bad posture and kept ignoring it. It never went away, so I learned to live with it. It couldn't be so bad, or so I thought. Then, my knees started making sounds (I don't know the English word, but it clicked when I moved), and I found it funny at first. When it didn't stop after months, I started worrying. Again, it never stopped so eventually I started ignoring that too.
See a pattern? Yeah, me too.
After years of denying my issues, they finally came to kick my butt. Three weeks ago, as I was going down the stairs, I tripped over and bent my right knee in ways that no human should ever bend. It hurt A LOT. I spent days limping because I was in so much pain.
Went to the doctor, got some scans done, and the results came today. I managed to deeply hurt one of my meniscus, and I'll probably need surgery to take it off. Without it protecting the bones in the joint, they'll be damaged faster than normal. So I basically got myself an early onset arthritis for this amazing achievement.
At 23 years old.
The doctor said that I need to lose weight and I can't ever let it slip. I need to keep my legs strong through my entire life, or else I might need major surgery (prosthetics probably) by 40.
This post is kinda my way to make myself accountable (I've got an issue with discipline), to start tracking my progress and to warn others. I am NOT morbidly obese, nor do I look obese. I have a BMI of 30.9 and that was enough to make a huge damage. Please, please, being overweight brings so many more issues than the ones that come later in life, don't let yourself get to where I got. It's not worth it. Loving yourself comes in many forms, and caring for your body is one of them.
I am going to see a nutritionist next week to start a meal plan or something like that, exercise is on hold until the knee is fixed. I'm also in therapy and on meds for the mental health issues. I need to start this journey.
If you're still here, thanks a lot for reading. Hope you'll see me again here posting my progress in a few months.
Take care!
TL;DR: let myself get obese through the last years, knees week mom's spaghetti, hurt my meniscus and probably got myself early arthritis because of it. At 23 years old. Gonna start my weightloss journey NOW!
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