Please forgive me for any typos, English is not my native language. And also Im using the mobile app, but I really need to get this off my chest. So... Im about 202 pounds, this is the heaviest I've been in the last 9 years, I hate my body, I hate my arms, my legs, I hate the way clothes fit me. It's been about 2 years since the last time I went shopping. Ive been on and off nutritionist appointments , meals plans, etc.. But as many of us I end up going back to my old bad habits. I suffer from depression and bad anxiety, I work from home so.. Staying in my safe, happy place is my easy way out of things. Im married, I love my husband, he's the best, but in my worst days I look back in the mirror and wonder how did he marry me? He could just simply walk out on me and find someone better... Sort of thoughts. Yesterday I had my first appointment with a new doctor after trying 2 different ones on a spawn of a year and a half... She was highly recommended so I decided to go, i felt so vulnerable she requests to get your measurements on a t-shirt and shorts... So there I am in front of her not even 5 minutes after walking in.. Talking about the antidepressants I take... And having an anxiety attack, I was overwhelmed, and started crying :( the look on her face ,... She kept everything professional, but I couldn't stop crying,... I was so mad at myself, why did I have to get like this in front of someone i just met. I don't want to be like this anymore, I want to change and stick to it. This episode was a real wake up call for me. I dont wanns cry and hate a myself anymore.
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